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"And as the angels of darkness watch over us, a storm is coming. A storm whose consequences we never expected."
Quote from the series "The Child"
Thursday, 23 January 2020
Today is the day. The day the barrel overflowed. I'm used to my boss not liking me. But for the colleague who always has the "favorite of the boss" bonus to be rude, I implode. But of course I remain calm and answer friendly, calm and with inner vomit
You know, I'm a loser. I'm a black sheep. A result of the unbearable lightness of being. I'm almost used to getting screwed at work
Whew! To reassure you, I will put on the sample of Mandarin Basilic. A nice start. Let's call it flowery. I had expected a citric opening. I spray it on a cosmetic tissue as a precaution. I smell something creamy, but there's something about the whole... ...unexpected
Since I am still annoyed, I put the cosmetic tissue in my bag. A fatal mistake. Because I usually forget a lot of things. Well, let's just say it has its good sides to be able to forget a lot of things
In the evening I have to get my monthly ticket from the public transport company. However, I never expected that this too would be a fatal mistake. Because when I draw my number, there are actually some people waiting in front of me
A little old lady "type mom" asks, "Where are the bus schedules?" I'll tell her and check on her. Let's say she's in her early 60s, unremarkable, wearing an old black coat. I found her red woolly cap and her face, which indicates that she has seen a lot in her life. Her face is pale, just like her pale blue eyes. Her grey hair goes up to her shoulders and is wavy
However, that this meeting, for me in the true sense of the word "making waves" would not have been expected. And what can I tell you: I should still experience my blue wonder!
The lady will come back and face me. "May I ask what number you have," she says. I say, I have A380 and you?" „A385.“ But wait! The display board says A102. There can't be 170 people ahead of us. And what can I tell you, it can't be
When she stands up to me, she takes off her cap and explains to me that it is too warm and the bandage hurts otherwise. She says, "cancer, white skin cancer. I had surgery last week and it's just too warm."
Whew! I swallow. Pretty hard. I look her straight in the eye. I resist her gaze without interrupting it. But, being entrusted with many hardships in life, I just keep on talking to her. I'm in no hurry today and I need the card, too. And she is really nice. Like so many people that we don't see at first sight and yet are far more interesting than all these "wannabees", these dazzlers, these empty shells that only live on the surface.
She tells me about the death of her parents and the worries of her everyday life. Although we only know each other for a few minutes, it's almost as if God had sent her to me
Her words still pierce me. Over and over again. She says, "Don't deal with the problems until it's too late. Not when you don't have the strength. Face the facts and do what's necessary."
When we say goodbye, I leave her with goose bumps
And there it is. The cloth I sprayed Tangerine Basilic on
When I smell the cloth with tangerine basilic, I wonder if you can smell beauty. A beauty that you didn't notice at the first spray, at the first look, at the first meeting.
I see white flowers, an infinitely beautiful mandarin blossom dress that nestles cleanly around me with a golden terracotta aura. Nothing disturbs, nothing corners, nothing can spoil this infinitely perfect moment
It's as if I can smell through this fragrance a moment that is infinite. Like the moment that's real. A moment that shows you the way
It's like a moment of truth. A moment that makes you understand. What's real, what matters and what will last forever. The moment when you realize that something is not only beautiful, but why. And that this is the reason it is infinite. And the moment of understanding that shows you the way
And all of a sudden I know what to do. And I make the appointment I had been bothering with. And I hope everything works out
And please always remember: Cinderella never asked for a prince. But for a beautiful dress and a free evening she could just have fun in
And even if someone looks inconspicuous or a fragrance only captivates you at second glance, remember that only the lasting impression counts. That which takes away your powerlessness, that which makes you understand the inner beauty, that which gives you strength
And whatever you're going through: I wish you much strength
"You know, the storm could have destroyed everything. That's why we had to leave. But what you don't know is that the snake waited outside our nest If we hadn't escaped, it would have destroyed our nest and eaten our egg. That's why the angels of darkness actually saved us. Even though everything looked like it was over, they gave us a fresh start."